Choose To Love You

If it came from family or friends the filter was that they only said it because they love me.

If it came from a stranger, it was because they were just being nice, they were fake or they were deflecting from something about me they didn’t like.

This way of being followed me for many years and eventually became my norm. Like the blanket that kept me warm so I accepted it as “who I am”.

I had a lot of success in my early career and all the money I had would be given away to family and friends leaving enough for me to eat and get to work.

I didn’t know it then but by doing that at least I related to part of me being a “nice person”.

Then after depression I cut myself off from family and friends to work on me and the realisations came flooding in.

Giving myself no love meant I wasn’t filling up my soul cup. I was giving to others from empty to my generosity was inauthentic.

I desperately wanted to feel good so I worked relentlessly made more money and gave more away with the aim of feeling better but all that was happening was the feeling of being more and more empty.

So there I was, trying to pick myself up from rock bottom. Alone in contemplation.

I started working on my business and for some reason, despite the actions I took, nothing would come. All my deals would fizzle out right before we signed on the dotted line.

So I looked within and it hit me. I’ve cut everyone off so if I make money there’s no one to give it to and that was my why.

How could I attract money if I didn’t love myself and feel deserving of anything??

I couldn’t.

So I explored more. I realised that not loving myself served me in many ways.

At school and in college some girls would tell me I thought I was too nice. In other words, I thought I was all that.

I thought if I don’t like me and they think that then everyone is going to hate me if I love myself. Holding on to self hatred kept me humble…..so I thought. Crazy huh?

Now I was at a crossroads. Continue feeling the way I did about myself and have a business that made no money or work on loving me and turn things around.

I CHOSE self love and started doing the work.

Guess what, almost immediately after that realisation my business started growing.

Our reality is a reflection of what is going on within. What is your reality saying about you?

Will you Choose to love you?

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Love you ❤️